less lazy

Emmaline had a tea party with her friends.

She promised me she'd clean it up. 

She did.

When I saw the stack of wasted sandwich edges with the fine deli meats and cheeses,

I refrained from being a party poop and saying

"Did you have to waste all this good food?"

No.

I took a picture and was happy my daughter has sweet friends.

It was easier to refrain because I had such a nice lunch with my dad.

He's a good dad and I've missed him.

Scheduling fun in my life helps me be a pleasant mother.

(most of the time)

Today my friend Leilani came over and saved me from a clinical depression

 brought on by piles of un-put-away  laundry.

You think I'm exaggerating.

I'm not.

Sometimes my need for fun makes my house look like I'm a lazy bum. 

Then I wonder....maybe I am a lazy bum?

If I am then that's no fun.

My mum was never a lazy bum.

What's wrong with me?

Am I that lazy?

At least I've birthed 5 kids as proof that I can get something eternally important

 all done!

Tonight I'm going to do yoga in public.

In a real gym that I plan to become a member of.

All the 38 years of my life I have never joined a gym.

Why would I want to exercise for the sake of exercise?

 In doors.

 With other people who might look at me?

My reasons for making such a drastic life changing choice?

I rarely do yoga at home anymore and when I do I'm so easy on myself.

I hold the poses only as long as is very comfortable for me. 

I want to feel like I'm getting stronger not weaker.

I want to do something that really makes me aware that I'm here on earth in my physical body.

I hope I don't embarrass my sister in law Ashley.

We are going to be new work out buddies. 

She is sporty and runs and plays indoor soccer and the like.

It will be fun to be with her.