my heart turns my head

I've been feeling nostalgic recently. 

I stumbled on these pictures in the 100's that are on my computer and I keep looking at them.

 I keep showing them to my friends when they come over.

I keep thinking about how I had baby twins and 3 other little kids and I took care of them and fed them and clothed them. 

I did that.

I did something that was very hard and crazy busy. 

It was demanding in every way.

Physically, emotionally, spiritually, mentally....

I did it.

I wonder why Gwenyth is so sad in this picture?

 Probably mad she couldn't get up and walk and run. She didn't like being a baby. 

That sounds odd but it's true. She always seemed so frustrated at not being able to do what the big kids were doing. 

Look how Gwenyth's blonde hair glistened

I love Sarah's fuzzy head

Those first few weeks I was nursing up to 22 hours a day. When they were about 5 weeks old I reluctantly realized I  was going to have to supplement with formula. 

What a relief that was.

Can I just say I dressed those babies so cute!

I think all this reminiscing has been my heart reminding my head that I have done hard things in the past and I can do hard things in the present and in the future. 

I think my heart has been reminding my antsy impatient self to enjoy these last two babies (5 yr old babies)  while I still have them at home.

These are years I can't get back. 

There are days I count down to kindergarten.....then to all day first grade.

All day......

My heart turns my head back to the present.

Now is all you really have. The past is gone and the future is an illusion. 

Be here now.

Be here now.

Be here now.

In body, in spirit.

Love the life you have now. It's all you truly have.