so many good things

Today is February 13, 2017. I wrote this post in October but never quite finished it or posted it.

 I'm posting it now because it's bugging me that I never posted it. 

Love, Kristen. 

My life is full of good and beauty and wonder and I'm keeping my focus on all that I love.

 I'm not putting my focus on this bazaar election or how anything else exasperating or frustrating.

 I am focusing on how I love what I do and I do what I love.

 Everything from my kids getting older and more independent to my adorable cat Max.

My kids are getting funner and I'm not comparing myself to other perfect mom's who do it all right and know where their kids are 24/7 and who never get really annoyed and blunt with their kids and who all they do is put the needs of their kids before their own and love every minute of it. 

Nope, I'm not comparing myself to those imaginary moms who don't even exist. 

I'm chilling out and letting my kids be and not blaming myself for every childish immaturity they have.

 They are growing and so am I. I feel angels and my grandma's in my home helping us all have more fun and laugh things off.

Right after school started my husband and I took a trip of a lifetime.

 It was the best trip we have ever taken. 

A white water rafting trip down the Colorado river through the grand canyon. 

It fell into our laps. (I mean, we still had to pay for it) I've never even heard of this tour package. 

Our friends called us and asked us if we wanted to join them since some people had dropped out.

 Oh my was it exciting, relaxing, thrilling, glorious. 

Glorious nature all around me! 

We slept under the stars. 

I have never seen so many stars! 

So bright. 

The canyon walls towering over us, the sound and smell of the river running beside us as we slept. My dreams were vivid and full of meaning. 

I saw faces of the ancients in the canyon walls. 

I also saw Darth Vader in the rocks of the canyon walls. 

Nature speaks to me in unique ways. ;) 

See that little waterfall? I stood under it let the water soak and wash over me. 

It felt like magic. 

Itty bitty lizard.

Lots of caves.

 Havasu I LOVE you! That's me about to jump in the river. 

Blue and green refreshing water from Mother Earth. 

I love my mother!

floating peacefully till the next section of rapids.

Other fun updates in my life. 

I'm studying Indigenous tribal teachings/Native American studies and Shamanism with Jeff Olsen. There are over 40 of us in the class. It is wonderful and I love it. I love learning about ancient cultures and practises. I can incorporate their wisdom into my modern life and feel the benefit and love. 

I am also gradually incorporating what I am learning about the ancient ways of health and life into my own Reiki Mastery practice and spiritual life coaching with my clients. 

 I'm excited about the possibilities. 

People are ready and hungry for the wisdom of those that really knew the earth, themselves and God. I know I am hungry for it. 

And it makes me feel like one of these beautiful Native women on horseback. 

I love really love studying ancient cultures.

Other updates...

I just had PRK done on my right eye to improve my vision. very little pain even though it can really hurt. I think it's because I eat big boxes of dark leafy greens and Nate gave me a blessing and Michell (my friend and teacher) sent me Reiki and I gave Reiki to myself and my body knows how to heal itself with all the love I give it!

I am loving eating a plant based diet.

 I love plants and plants love me. 

I feel so very much better, physically and emotionally. 

I love the food I'm eating and I have fallen in like with cooking and being in the kitchen putting recipes together. 

Big deal for me since I used to kind of hate it. 

I love eating beautiful fresh fruits and vegetable of all different colors. 

I have been able to go off my prescriptions 3 months after going to a plant based diet.

 I used to wake up with aches and pains in my back or in my feet. 

No more. I feel fluid and fresh. 

My pants are all really baggy and falling off. 

I didn't know how much fluff I had till it fluffed off. 

I didn't want all my fluff to fluff away. 

My sister told me to put yummy nut butters on everything. OK, I will. My nutritionist told me small bodies are healthy bodies.

 She also gave me some tips to fluff myself up a bit. 

 It really does matter what I eat. 

I have power to change my health for the better and it is fun, liberating and empowering to take charge of what I put in my body.

I am loving my private Reiki practice! 

I have as many clients as I desire to keep me the right amount of busy, but not so busy that the joy of it is drained out. 

I am meeting wonderful people and I am showing them their own power to help themselves. 

It's really rewarding to help people feel the love of God and heaven and help to empower them. 

 It's also really fun to feel like a grown up and have my own little business that I operate out of my back yard "she shed"

I haven't watched any of the debates.

 I have stopped reading articles or researching candidates.

 I don't want to vote. Think what you will of me.

My husband was made the Bishop of our ward this summer.  

When the Stake president called us in to call us to the calling.

 It's Nate's calling but in a marriage it affects us both. 

Anyway, when he called us in and called Nate to be Bishop of our congregation I felt God say. 

"This is no big deal. You've been prepared. 

I told you this was coming, it was your choice to not fully believe me" 

I'm putting word's in God's mouth, all this came through with feelings not words. 

As we walked home I had several minutes of clarity and could see how we are just the perfect recipe for our ward at this time in our ward's life.

 Then for the next 2 weeks all I could think of was how immature we are and how I don't want this responsibility to mess up my life. All I could see was how my kids are a mess and how I don't know what the heck I'm doing and our grass is full of dandelions and that I like dandelions but lawns are supposed to be just green grass and something must be wrong with me since I like my lawn with clover and violets and dandelions. 

 I really don't want this calling to interfere with what I want to do in our life. 

I felt tortured by negative thoughts and dreams. 

Then, on the Sunday it was announced and everyone knew and everyone raised their hand in support, these feelings and thoughts began to quickly evaporate off of me as I knew they would. 

I married Nate for me. 

He is kind and fun and good and capable and I married him so I would have a great life. 

I haven't wanted to share him. But since I feel it is God who is asking for him I will say yes. 

Our Father gives me joy after joy, fun after fun, friend after friend, love after love. 

I'll share my wonderful Nate for Him. 

Life is good. I am determined to keep seeing it that way.

Love, Kristen