I forgot to take a picture because I started to freak out.
That's where we were sitting today to practice some songs for summerfest.
We are going to practice next Friday and record next Saturday hopefully.
Danny came over last Friday and I had fun the whole time we worked and somehow avoided any anxious thoughts. Last week our one hour writing and practicing session gave me a week's worth of joy.
This Friday for some reason I started to spiral down before he even arrived.
I don't even know it's happening till I'm already sweating and not thinking straight.
After Danny left I sat there with my panicky self trying to figure out what toxic thoughts I was letting circulate through my blood stream.
It was these ones.
I'm not good. I'm not ready. My song is boring. Too repetitive. My voice sounds weird.
I can't do this all by myself.
I'm in this all by myself.
What's going to happen?
How is this going to work?
Ok well, I hope I learned my lesson.
Next week I'm going to keep my head in the right place.
It's all going to be about the moment.
No jumping ahead.
Last day of school today!!!
I spent twice as much at Costco yesterday in preparation for 5 hungry kids with their many friends.
I've had a house full of 13 year old girls today.
Oh boy.
I can do summer with all my kids.
We are going to have fun and I'm going to keep my cool and when I don't I'm going to be nice to myself about it.
Happy Friday
What's going to happen?
How is this going to work?
Ok well, I hope I learned my lesson.
Next week I'm going to keep my head in the right place.
It's all going to be about the moment.
No jumping ahead.
Last day of school today!!!
I spent twice as much at Costco yesterday in preparation for 5 hungry kids with their many friends.
I've had a house full of 13 year old girls today.
Oh boy.
I can do summer with all my kids.
We are going to have fun and I'm going to keep my cool and when I don't I'm going to be nice to myself about it.
Happy Friday
Kristen - I haven't been to your blog enough lately. We were out of town for nine days. It's been fun to catch up, read all your thoughts. You're amazing. Summerfest? Can I come hear you?? Read this quote while driving back from St. George. And I thought of it when I read this post.
ReplyDelete"To dare is to lose one's footing momentarily. To not dare is to lose oneself." - Soren Kierkegaard, Danish philosopher
You play and sing and write because you would lose yourself if you didn't. You feel compelled. Keep going, one song, one event, one day at a time. You're balancing things well. I love you.
Catherine, it's a good thing I have you.
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