I would love to tell you about how I recorded one of my favorite songs but I'm trying to recover from doing Saturday breakfast and chores with my children.
Nate got up early to go help a neighbor re roof and then he had to go in to work because he has a big trial so he was only there for the good part of the morning.
Breakfast.
He missed Sarah's long screaming session on the couch "you are the worst mom ever! It's taking too long!" I didn't dare transport her to her room to scream because I was pretty sure I'd spank her bum HARD all the way up the stairs so I stayed at the stove stirring oatmeal.
He also missed the several cat fights the kids got in.
He missed me giving Sarah her new shorts and new skirt as a reward for doing all her chores (hallelujah!) But then hating them because the shorts were scratchy and the skirt bugged her. (more wasted money on cute clothes that sit in the drawer!)
I found it neccesarry to sit in my closet and cry.
I wonder if Nate was at home and I was at work if he would spend as much time as me crying in the closet.?
In an effort to pull my self up by my bootstraps I started listing things I was thankful for.....while crying. It sounds silly now. I get so overwhelmed by all me and my husband are doing in our lives.... sometimes it makes me want to cry in my closet then go to sleep and let the kids do what ever the heck they want.
In fact that is still sounding like a pretty good idea. Maybe a 30 minute power nap will give me the oomph to help Emma finish getting ready for girls camp and help me find that elusive father's day gift for Nate.
I'm tired because I was out late last night helping a friend. My neighborhood is like my extended family. We take care of each other. Sometimes it's hard for me to know if we are striking the right balance between taking care of my own little family and taking care of our neighborhood family.
I love helping my friends because they actually enjoy my company and say thank you.
My kids....not so much.
I think I'll go take that nap and hope things look better after some sleep. I hear the TV on in the basement.
The voice in my head that always tells me what good mothers do is telling me to go turn it off.
The survival instinct in me says go sleep while they watch TV it's your only chance!
Save yourself!
I think I need a walk in closet. ;) Love your honest take on a hard day. I hope you got a nap. Just a quick snooze can turn the day around. And TV? sometimes it IS your only chance! You're doing it all so well. Love you.
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