why you came

There is so  much more to us than meets the eye

I'm going to figure it out.

 Sometimes as I try to figure it out I get more puzzle pieces and get information that feels so true. 

Other times I try to figure it out I just get confused and mad. That's when I scrub the toilets and shine the windows and scrub out the fridge. 

As I scrub I get bursts of simplicity and clarity on the simple things that bring me peace and direction and then as I keep scrubbing my friend calls and reminds me that I need to pay the fee so I can go with my daughter on her choir trip as a chaperon.

I would have forgotten and missed out on a chance to love and have fun with my daughter. 

Taking action with the mundane seems to get the wheels moving in all the other parts of life. 

It leads me to the fun stuff and the parts of my life that are magic and meaningful. 

There is so much more to me than I can comprehend at once.

When I sleep my dreams are incredibly detailed and I experience them as an amazing adventure.

I wake up with a haze surrounding the complete story or meaning of the "dream".

I wake up delighted or in awe or laughing with the humor of what I remember of it.

 Where do I really go? 

What am I really doing as I sleep?

 It seems so much more than just dreaming. 

"When we lie down to sleep,our minds are often as bright as an angel… They will range over the earth, visit distant friends, and, for aught we know, the planets, and accomplish great feats; do that which will enhance our happiness…and prepare us for celestial glory; but when we wake in the morning, it is all gone from us; we have forgotten it. …This is right; were it different, where would be the trial of our faith?"

 Brigham Young in Journal of Discourses 1;351-52

Have you ever felt that way when you wake up? 

Like you have just returned from an incredible journey? 

Have you ever felt so tired like you were busy all night as you slept? 

I think if we remembered it fully we wouldn't be able to do our life in this physical dimension. 

I think all that information might drive us mad because it would get lost in translation from the infinite the finite. 

Things can get jumbled up in translation from the infinite to the finite. 

I'm realizing how I am the creator of my reality.

I decide how I'm going to feel and what I'm going to do no matter what I think at the time I really am the one who is in charge.

When I choose and choose and choose and choose to keep only looking for the love , looking for the light. 

Only love only love only love. 

If my eye be single I can see the other as a temporary mirage and not the forever truth. 

Trust yourself.

Trust the personal process of life that you are choosing.

Trust the seeds you have planted.

Trust that it is all working together for your growth. 

Growth is what you want.

It's why you came.

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