Frustrated with my own vanity today.
Dizzy with my own complaints and perfectionistic requests.
I sing John Mayer's song called Gravity like this
Vanity!
is working against me
Oh Oh and vanity
Wants to bring me down
Twice as young
ain't twice as good
and can't sustain like wisdom could
Wanting more is gonna send me to my knees
I'll never know what makes this woman
with all the love that her heart can stand
Dream of ways to throw it all away
Vanity
has taken better women than me
Now how can that be?
Just keep me where the light is
Yes, keep me where the light is.
I sing this song to myself often.
Frustrated by how much of my life and energy is spent on cleaning up the same messes over and over and how little of my life is spent on things I love, like writing another song.
Frustrated with my responsibilities.
Trying to get my girls to do their homework and learn to read.
It's not coming as easy for them as a lazy mother like me would hope.
Just read it. You sound it out perfectly now put the dang sounds together!
They feel my frustration and run off mad and crying.
Sarah of course has to throw in
"You're the worst mom ever!!!"
When I'm in a good place mentally this hurled accusation rolls off my back.
When I'm frustrated with my own stuff and their stuff, it makes me walk off and lock myself in the bathroom for a while.
Today is the last sunny warm day. Tomorrow it is going to snow...
I'm now going to do my best to get my girls to wear some decent clothes to school.
We are going to walk to school in the sunshine and see if that helps.
I sound petty and weak don't I.
Older mothers who are now dealing with the problems of their adult children would smile at my little problems.
Just keeping it real
Oh honey, I love the tweety birds. And that look on your face. It's all good. You're just what those girls need. Put the dang sounds together had me busting up! Been there. You're doing great. Come at it another day with more time and a good sleep. Love you!!
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