Last night I was thinking about which song I want to sing on my blog next. I can't pretend that I don't like doing this. I do like doing this. I love telling stories and writing and singing songs feels like telling stories. I do wish I could be more relaxed when I sing in front of real live people that I love. I'm sure I'll eventually get desensitized.
I have been thinking about how grateful I am to have discovered a creative outlet. Motherhood is really hard and so much of it is completely out of my control. My kids are there own little people. They make their own choices . I can't control them. Some of the time it feels like Nate and I are failing as parents. I don't know if my kids are harder than the average kids. Is there an average kid? My twins for instance seem extra feisty. I don't know if they really are or if it's because there are 2 of them. One is gasoline and the other is a match. Boom!
Sarah Caroline. Isn't that a lovely name? She is named after Nate's Grandmother and Nate's Mother. Both lovely amazing women. For now, my little Sarah is the death of me. Yesterday for instance, she was hungry. She wanted to stop at "Ric Donald's" for some chicken "nuggies". I told her I just bought dino nuggies from Costco, let's go home and have those and I'll make you a slushy! She started to prepare for freak out fit lift off. I really didn't want to listen to her scream. I went to "Ric Donald's" . In the drive through she starts screaming for sprite. I reminded her she wanted me to make her a slushy. She said she wanted a slushy AND a sprite. I'm feeling mad by now. I tell her no. We drive home with her screaming and kicking. Gwenyth is plugging her ears saying "she's so annoying! she's so annoying!" (Sometimes Gwenyth say's "annoising" I think that's a great word combo.......annoying + noisy = annoising.) It's torture for both Gwen and I to listen to her scream and plead. Then we get home and she kicks and hits us. Then I take her up to time out which is really hard because she is big and wild. I give her a good pinch on the way up the stairs from mommy's "pinchy crab" (sometimes it's the only way to get her attention. Don't judge me.) She comes out screaming again. I put her back. I'm out of breath and all worked up. Finally she chills out.
The next time she asks me for something that she wants, that I want to say no too, I'm just going to say no. She is going to find something, anything, to scream about anyway so I might as well draw the line where I want it.
For the record, this morning she has been an absolute doll. She slept in, ate all her breakfast. Let me do her hair, got herself dressed and has been saying funny things and making me laugh. I asked her just now to take the popcorn bowl to the the sink. She said very seriously "I can't. I hurt my arms." I asked how, she said "da dog bit dem"
Tabitha is 11 pounds of pure love. So Sarah blaming her "hurt" arms on the dog really made me laugh.
You gotta taste the bitter with the sweet I guess. I hope she grows out of her crazy fits soon!
I love you Sare Bear
I'll post a song soon. I tried to this morning but then I talked too long on the video and then the house got noisy and I really need to do the laundry and make dinner for once!
I'm back. It's now 10:30 pm. I did cook dinner and I even made cookies! I didn't do the laundry :( I just made a video of me singing Jupiter
I made a video of me giving the story behind Jupiter this morning. I always have a story and I love to tell my little stories. If you are sick of my little stories then you better not come back to this blog because I'm just going to keep telling them. :)
This video is the story about the song. Don't skip it. It's a happy story.
Jupiter sounds better in person. I love this simple little song and I hope you do too.
I have been thinking about how grateful I am to have discovered a creative outlet. Motherhood is really hard and so much of it is completely out of my control. My kids are there own little people. They make their own choices . I can't control them. Some of the time it feels like Nate and I are failing as parents. I don't know if my kids are harder than the average kids. Is there an average kid? My twins for instance seem extra feisty. I don't know if they really are or if it's because there are 2 of them. One is gasoline and the other is a match. Boom!
Sarah Caroline. Isn't that a lovely name? She is named after Nate's Grandmother and Nate's Mother. Both lovely amazing women. For now, my little Sarah is the death of me. Yesterday for instance, she was hungry. She wanted to stop at "Ric Donald's" for some chicken "nuggies". I told her I just bought dino nuggies from Costco, let's go home and have those and I'll make you a slushy! She started to prepare for freak out fit lift off. I really didn't want to listen to her scream. I went to "Ric Donald's" . In the drive through she starts screaming for sprite. I reminded her she wanted me to make her a slushy. She said she wanted a slushy AND a sprite. I'm feeling mad by now. I tell her no. We drive home with her screaming and kicking. Gwenyth is plugging her ears saying "she's so annoying! she's so annoying!" (Sometimes Gwenyth say's "annoising" I think that's a great word combo.......annoying + noisy = annoising.) It's torture for both Gwen and I to listen to her scream and plead. Then we get home and she kicks and hits us. Then I take her up to time out which is really hard because she is big and wild. I give her a good pinch on the way up the stairs from mommy's "pinchy crab" (sometimes it's the only way to get her attention. Don't judge me.) She comes out screaming again. I put her back. I'm out of breath and all worked up. Finally she chills out.
The next time she asks me for something that she wants, that I want to say no too, I'm just going to say no. She is going to find something, anything, to scream about anyway so I might as well draw the line where I want it.
For the record, this morning she has been an absolute doll. She slept in, ate all her breakfast. Let me do her hair, got herself dressed and has been saying funny things and making me laugh. I asked her just now to take the popcorn bowl to the the sink. She said very seriously "I can't. I hurt my arms." I asked how, she said "da dog bit dem"
You gotta taste the bitter with the sweet I guess. I hope she grows out of her crazy fits soon!
I'll post a song soon. I tried to this morning but then I talked too long on the video and then the house got noisy and I really need to do the laundry and make dinner for once!
I'm back. It's now 10:30 pm. I did cook dinner and I even made cookies! I didn't do the laundry :( I just made a video of me singing Jupiter
I made a video of me giving the story behind Jupiter this morning. I always have a story and I love to tell my little stories. If you are sick of my little stories then you better not come back to this blog because I'm just going to keep telling them. :)
This video is the story about the song. Don't skip it. It's a happy story.
Jupiter sounds better in person. I love this simple little song and I hope you do too.
I've been wanting to hear Jupiter again now I can whenever I want to. Yes! What a beautiful and personal song. I love it and I believe in angels too. And I believe in you, my amazing talented sister. Go Go Go!!!
ReplyDeleteI have missed Jupiter too! That's one of my favorites (I know I say that about every one!) Do you like all of my comments lately! :)
ReplyDeleteYes I do like all your comments lately. What has gotten into you both?
ReplyDeleteYou think your kids will never grow up and you long for the day when you can have your own time....then they do and you want those cute little times when they say or do something and you cannot stop laughing. Enjoy them each and everyday!
ReplyDeleteThis one had me crying! I mean really crying! It's wonderful, and watching you I feel like I'm watching your beautiful, graceful, faithful mother! Your mannerisms and speech are exactly as hers are. I've always wanted to grow up to be like Kathy, now I want to grow young like Kristen!
ReplyDeleteKeep singing to us!!!!!
I haven't had a quiet moment to listen to you songs but I had to make a comment on how true it is that you have to take the bitter to get the sweet. I think that we all have to deal with different things with our children but we all get to struggle through parenthood in our own way. And when I look at other children with their different quirks I sometimes am greatful for my kids quirks. And my kids have definitely gotten there share of pinches on their arms.
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