The twins drove me nuts this morning. I let them. I just had no patience for all the whining and fighting. It is because I have a to do list forming in my mind. It makes me loose my patience when I think of all the random errands and house work I need to get done. When I have no patience they just get more whiny and fighty. I keep reminding myself............." 2 more years and they will be in first grade, at school all day. Just enjoy this time you have little preschoolers to take on fun outings and color and paint with. Enjoy how they love to be with you." A lot of the time I do enjoy every word that comes out of their mouth and every little cute funny naughty thing they do. This morning though, I felt like a sulky teenager that wanted nothing to do with finicky fussy preschoolers. After lunch they both went to play with a different friend at the friend's house! Whew! I took a hike. It was just what I needed. I wish it wasn't so rare for me to just go for a hike or a bike. If I wanted to make it a regular thing I'd have to wake up early and go when it was cold and dim. I love sleep and I'd rather go when it's sunny, but when it's sunny I am encumbered with children. This is why I hardly ever hike or bike. Sometimes I wonder just how lazy and unorganized I really am?...... Or is everyone this unorganized and lazy and I am just imagining they are getting up early and doing laundry even though it is sunny? Either way, I sure did enjoy the blue sky and the puffy white clouds and the breeze and how the rocks sparkle in the sun. The stream was so full and sounded so pretty. There were dear tracks on the trail. Big mommy tracks with bitty baby tracks next to them. I saw a lizard and a furry something scamper off. I feel nature starved so hiking today felt like a nature feast.
I almost have a song to match every mood. Here is one that pretty much matches the mood I was in today.
I wrote this song October 20, 2010. I know the exact date because I typed it into my iPhone notebook and it records the date. I woke up that morning and didn't want to get out of bed. I picked up my iPhone and typed in these words. Some songs feel like they just write themselves, this was one of those songs. Well, I guess it started out as a poem since I was just laying in bed typing it into my phone. After I typed in the poem I thought I was so clever. Thinking I was so clever gave me the boost I needed to get out of bed.
I'm so glad I could take a hike instead "watch 10 Oprah's all in a row, hide in my closet, eat fancy chocolate. Lock myself in my room. Anything to keep from going Kaboom!"
Hiking is a much more effective way of dealing with a bad mood. The trouble is when you have lots of little people depending on you, you can't just run off into the mountains for a little sanity break. May the force be with you fellow mothers who will face another day of it.
I'm so glad I could take a hike instead "watch 10 Oprah's all in a row, hide in my closet, eat fancy chocolate. Lock myself in my room. Anything to keep from going Kaboom!"
Hiking is a much more effective way of dealing with a bad mood. The trouble is when you have lots of little people depending on you, you can't just run off into the mountains for a little sanity break. May the force be with you fellow mothers who will face another day of it.
I hear you!! And I am so with you. I feel like there is always so much to do and the kids are always whining, and I wonder how other people seem to have it more together. I hate it when people tell me how fast they grow and I think "Thank Goodness!" We had a great RS lesson and I have been trying to take the extra minute to do something the kids want. But boy, I would much rather read a book, screw around on the computer, talk on the phone, sew..... anything that's just for ME. I am counting down till the kids are all in school and I can actually accomplish stuff, but I do fear that my house will not be as spic-and-span as it is in my imagination. We'll see!
ReplyDeleteI love your new blog. I love you. You are my hero
ReplyDeleteJust so you know, I have found that sleep is a very precious commodity too, and I don't waste it! I have found I'd much rather sleep in (that means until time to play mom in the morning, not really sleeping in) than get up early and try to accomplish extra things, because then I'm just more grumpy during the day. Don't think you have to be super woman, it just makes life so much more difficult. A gal I used to teach in YW made this video with her friends, I thought of you when I saw it . . . http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LoJdUeYrn2k&feature=share . She is the supermodel at the end.
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Aunt Lee